joshu1986

I'm thirty years old.

I don't have as many close friends as I once did. I find myself getting bored of going out for drinks. I am eating too much, but I don't have much else to do, so... I am unhealthy. But perhaps most importantly, I am sad about something and I don't know why.

Being sad in itself isn't the only issue. I feel like there's something enjoyable I'm missing. I think I've been missing it. And for some reason, the one thing that brings me back to that feeling is hearing music from old games I used to play.

I still play games, but I cared more about trophies, or hard difficulties, etc. I frankly only cared about impressing people. And that's ruining something for me.

So I decided that I would spend this life of mine, and who knows if my current situation will last a few weeks or a few decades, to go back to treating videogames as a good thing in and of themselves, not a numerical icon of "tasks". I don't want to play tasks, anymore. I want to beat games, even do extras in the game, but I don't want to feel like I have to for a platinum. And I want to play them to play them, not to max them out and move on.

So I've decided to begin to add games I either haven't beaten, never tried, or a few that it's just been a long time. Not all of them will be older. Hell, I plan on playing a new game that should be delivered to me within the week (The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild). But today, I began the first game on my list : Wild Arms from 1996. And I want to experience these games for what they are. And hopefully, but engaging with them, I might be able to unlock something within me.

Let's see if I can create a therapy through gaming.